not in a good mood today. hai.
dunno hw 2 describe my day....
had a flash back jux nw that made me feel so freak. hai.
terrible..
horrible....
hurtful...
depressed....
not a single one that can make me happy...
all my past is full of sadness...
so suck...
everyone has ups and down in life..
i think mine only have all the down...
come 2 think of it, almost all the time i'm feeling sad....
but just don't know why,
i had 2 hide my feelings infront of everybody in this world,
show them that i'm a happy go lucky person,
hide my expressions,
hide my thoughts,
tell them lies of wat i have in life
or
act that i am good...
all these are so not true, fakes, just not me....me.......=(
and nw....wat did i get inreturn....
misunderstanding....
expectations....
people thought that i am always happy...
but do you all kno that i'm tired...
from all these bad things that i have done...
you all won't possibly guess that my true life is that bad...
you all won't know that i'm from such freaking background....
unless i tell u..
no one know..
just because i am a head prefect, doesn't mean my life is good...
i also have my difficulty...
can't just those people put themselves in my shoes...
do u all know...
how terrible my feelings is?
how i wish to leave this world and be no one?
i guessed no one knows about it...
just wanna say sorry to all...
sorry for anything, anyone, everything..
sorry for hurting you or watever....
i'm just so sorry, so sorry....
29/9/06
how i wish not to be born to carry this burden.....
